watching: the days blur together
listening to: misfits- "helena"
mood: indigestamitated

my tummy feels bad.
bad combination of food i guess.
Al's coming home tomorrow. he leaves CT at like 7 i think.
i'm glad he's coming back, but sad he's coming back.
he's gonna miss all his friends and family and stuff.
once again, i feel like i'm holding someone back.

i love 'em and all... it's just hard on him to be this far away from family.
i mean...
my whole family, and pretty much every friend i've ever had lives in florida.
i wouldn't know how it feels.

today i'm in one of those moods where i wanna chop out someone's organs.
i don't think many other people have those.

anyway... i'm gonna go pity myself somewhere else...

peas and larvae,
laura

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happy turkey day...
thanksgiving prayer... i said a special thank you for Al.
he's all i got.
yep
yep
yep
he's all i got.
i like it that way.

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watching: meh scrreeeeens
listening to: stupid television
mood: ogpgi wpoeug ewpouglsjg

today's been rough.
i think that Al may be serious this time, he just may be going to a damn strip club.
oh well. i'll live with it.
he'll see their crusty ass nooks shoved in his face, and realize how good he's got it.
then again. he jokes a lot.
all bark no bite kinda deal.

i went out and go sushi with meh dads tonight.
i loooove sushi
SUSHI!!! <3 <3 <3 LIEK TEH FN PWNEGE!!!111oneoneone
ugh
i saw the spongebob movie. it was interesting to say the least.
personally, (don't tell anyone) i liked it XD
my little secret!!!!!
TEEFRICKIN HEEEEEEEEEEEEE

today sucks though. i'm missin' Al... and i'm really tired.
AND
AND AND AND
i gained like 3 pounds. NOT GOOD.
i'll just go on the supermodel diet- air, water, and liquor. JUST KIDDING
jeez
i hate alcohol. just water and air, i promise!

erf.
well.
i wish you all scrotal disorders and cancers!
peas and larvae,
laura

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watching: minutes tick by. saturday is so soon.
listening to: bjork- vokuro
mood: things seem to move slower

i'm glad that Al is getting to see his family and friends. he needs to. it's just tough on me to watch him go away for a week.
i know. i know.
things could be better- things could be worse; that's how it always works. but things have their way of working out, though. things will be fine. i just know that each moment will be longer than the last when he's gone. each and every one.

it gets me down that he's leaving, but i'm really happy for him that he's doing it. tears come to my eyes when i think about it.
i just know tomorrow night will be emotional. tomorrow night will be close, and the static in the background will just fade out. just me and him, alone.
kisses that last forever.
stares that melt the heart.
that's what it's all about.
that's what i live through every day for. for that- with him.

tonight he packs.
tomorrow night i drive him to his aunt's house so he can go from there to the airport in the morning.
god i'm gonna miss him.

well this is a hard entry.
there will be more later on.

peas and larve,
laura

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watching: twitchy little lines on the screen
listening to: weezer- el scorcho
mood: bouncy, like toast

HEY!
i'm in a decent mood today!!!
sunday AND friday night over the weekend me and my baby Al hang out :) it was sooooo awersosome!!! i watched "bad taste" for the first time. GREAT MOVIE highly recomended if you can take gore lightly :)

i had bowling today
eh
it sucked as always

i dyed my hair red monday, a little different from bluegreen, yellow, white, pink, and dark brown. now it's brown and candy apple red, and mahogany. it's really interesting. i miss my old hair now though :(

me and Al are doing awesome, as always. i miss him like crazy, but he's going away for thanksgiving from the 20th until the 27th.... i'm gonna miss him so baddddd :( i can already taste the tears..... but i'll live, every trial makes us closer. true love relationships are like rubber bands. if love is really present, things snap back after you pull them apart. i know i'm gonna marry this guy. i really do. this is totally it, and i'm so glad i found it so early. saves me lots of trouble.

i don't talk to anyone, just the occasional female. i don't do much but work and talk to Al. and you know what.... i like it this way.
i never thought i'd like something like this. but god, i love it. i love Al, i have no reason to be arround other people. humans are worthless, and everyone should just die- except for me and my Al :)
i just wanna lay right next to him- in his arms, for the rest of time. i just wanna be with him. and i don't just wanna, i'm gonna.

welp, i'm gonna go do something that's more important than babbling!

peas and larvae,
LAURA!

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watching: TEEHEE!
listening to: you wouldn't believe me... i won't tell you
mood: WHEE!!! VOMIT!

Tomorrow me and Ally get to hang out!!!!!!!!!!!
i'm coming straight from my work to his work to follow him home.
it's gonna be awesome.

I HAD CHILI TONIGHT!!! mmmm chili.... and meh sprites.
i'm in a good mood!
i actually crunched the numbers. i do too much work!!!! i need to slow down. this sucks! it ruins my reputation!

it just occured to me, i have vomited more than ever recently. it's kinda weird.

i love Al so much!!!!
this is the sappy part of the entry.
i love Al so much that i can't live a moment without knowing we're together in some way. i've never felt this happy with a person- EVER. it's so great.i wake up every morning with the same person on my mind. i look at my ceiling and blink a few times, and then i smile. i never smile in the morning. but for Al, i seem to feel like i have something to live for.

when i'm with him it's more than magic.
i seem to slip into this state of indescribable joy. it's like i just want to kiss him and love on him and just be there with him. i've NEVER felt this way, and it's so weird.
i dunno
i can't wait to feel it again
when i'm kissing him
on top of him
beside him

ah dreams come true!!

g'byes!
laura

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